I had two meetings yesterday. They both scared me. I had little butterflies floating around in my stomach all day. Now, that might have been magnified by the sheer volume of coffee I consumed yesterday, but that wasn’t the only reason.
Both were about big projects I’m involved in. They’re scary projects. They’re bigger than me. They require a lot of revolutionary thinking. And frankly, I’m not sure I have the skills to deliver the quality these projects need. (Insecurity.)
But I’m embracing those butterflies. At the same time those projects scare me, they also excite the heck out of me. Here’s why: Every time I’ve tried something bigger than myself (same with my family) it’s always been incredible. Any time I’ve embraced a project bigger than I could possibly hope to handle, God comes through and great things happen.
I’ve been living a butterfly feeling life for a couple months now. At least once a month something comes along that both excites and scares me. I live in a constant sense of healthy fear (also unhealthy fear…but let’s not talk about that). And I want to live in that sense of healthy fear for the rest of my life.
I believe Jesus’ disciples lived with that fear. I believe the Wright Brothers lived with that fear. I believe anyone that’s tried something revolutionary and new (and bigger than themselves) has lived with that fear. It’s healthy.
That fear stretches us. It forces us to learn faster than we would on our own. It forces us to look toward God. It forces us to lose a little control of our lives.
And that is a very good thing.
So this is my question for you. When was the last time you felt those butterflies in your stomach? When will you feel it again?
….annnnnnd theres my dose of encouragement for the day.
you da man.
….annnnnnd theres my dose of encouragement for the day.
you da man.
What you described is the best part of being in creative ministry. Great post!
What you described is the best part of being in creative ministry. Great post!