I Hate Patience

My wife and I find ourselves in an interesting position. I’m no longer working toward anything specific here in Dallas. She’s no longer in school. There’s absolutely nothing tying us here.

Both of our families live away from us. So they aren’t keeping us here. She eventually wants to move to Miami. Me too. But we haven’t heard a go-ahead from God to move. But our lease is up December 11th so we need to make a decision.

Then I’m waiting for a publisher to make a decision about my devotional for creatives. I may or may not have some job offers but nothing concrete has happened at all yet. There are a thousand possibilities but nothing solid. It’s a time where I’m learning about patience.

I don’t want to move on anything unless I hear God speaking. But I’m also not going to sit still and just do nothing.

So I’m keeping busy. I’m planting seeds like crazy. I’m developing every project I have and even starting small ones here and there.

It’s a really tough balance I’m having to strike. I don’t want to get so busy that I can’t tackle the new project God has for me. But I also don’t want to be irresponsible and hold back from my potential. There are a ton of great things I could be doing right now.

I’m tempted to take things into my own hands and just make something happen. It would be a lot less stress on my wife and me. But I don’t want to do that. I want to wait for God to speak.

Until I have to do something, I won’t do anything. (Obviously at some point, no action is a decision.) I’m actively waiting for God to speak, by keeping my hands busy with the things they find to do.

But I truly hate patience, FYI. But I know it’s worth it in the end.

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